That song describes my life perfectly right now.
As does the picture of the mouse on the wheel…running flat out and still managing to not move an inch…
The last few days have been a whirlwind of things to do, things remembered that were not done, things ticked off the list and a lot of stress. Which very kindly let itself be known by immense pain in my chest and back (thank you GERD). I spent quite a lot of time on the floor with rolled up towels to try to relieve the pain.
Its gotten to the point where I’m afraid to eat anything just in case my body doesn’t like it. On the plus side I’ll lose weight. On the minus side being bloated doesn’t let you look thin. On the minus/minus side, losing weight too fast when you’re been overweight for too long means a lot of sagging ugliness which I’d like to avoid thankyouverymuch.
Yesterday I had my last gym session at the gym I found here in Melbourne. Such a great place. Cycle class and a PT session to finish it off. I thought I’d never walk again but today I feel fine. Don’t tell Simon (the trainer)… then again, I won’t be seeing him again so he can’t take pleasure in torturing me anymore. heheheh
I’ve been so lucky that when I was ready to get fit again I found two great gyms in New Norfolk (Freedom Fitness) and Mitcham (Lifestyle Essentials). Great motivators. Thank you Simon, Chrissie, Michael, Stacey D, Stacey B and Janine. Not to mention David, the man with hands of gold… I did offer to take him to Greece with me as my personal masseur… I’ll miss you all.
Its funny how the people you end up seeing at the last minute, to say goodbye to, aren’t the people you saw the most of. Not the ones you hung out with or spent the most time with. It just seems that I’ve been catching up with people I haven’t seen in years… then again, I’m in Melbourne now so that makes sense. Its been years since I lived here.
And soon I’ll be living on the other side of the world.
Its only just now sinking in. Its been such a whirlwind… I was in Greece in June/July, I came home, started packing, selling, finishing up and wrapping up my life in Tasmania. By the end of November I was in Melbourne. And tonight I leave for Greece indefinitely.
Though I’ve second guessed the move a few times, through all the bad times like having to rehome my beloved dogs who were both born in my bedroom and lived with me their entire lives, I’ve just plodded on. I made a decision so I was moving on, you know… following through with it. We don’t muck around here!
So now that the dust is settling its becoming real.
This whole experience has been difficult. I’ve moved back and forth to Greece and interstate quite a few times in my life, but this has been by far the hardest move ever. Selling a house, car, almost everything I own. In the past I either put stuff in storage or I didn’t have much to worry about.
Its been very expensive too. I’ve gone through so much money… and lost a crap load of money as well. On selling things way under what they were worth, just to get it done. And giving away so many things.
Thinking positive again, it feels good to let go of things. Its hard to start with, but as you begin to go through and look at things more practically, you realise there are so many things you don’t need to hold on to. I didn’t need to keep all the dogs’ sashes, rosettes and ribbons. I know they won them, its imprinted in my mind and heart. I didn’t need to hold onto all my collectables. Or all my crockery. Or my linen. How many things do you need in order to live comfortably? Not that many. Simplify your life. It feels good to not be surrounded by so much stuff.
In a way I look forward to living in a bedsit for a while. A small space, with only the necessities for daily life.
I am so looking forward to going to Paros and just spending time alone, finding the real Zefi. The artist who I’ve buried in the need to make a living, the need to do things every minute of the day.
And of course spending time with mom and my extended family. Being part of a family again. I’ve missed that.
(Remind me about that when I start complaining about not having any privacy, will you?)